Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Insecure Writers welcome to the Yellow Submarine!


Howdy, Insecure Writers! You were recommended to me by Candi!  Thanks to the amazing Alex J. Cavanaugh for hosting this awesome group. Go check out the other participants too.

I do all my upbeat
positive blogging
over at Seize the day.
This is my backyard,
you know, you can't see it
from the street,
and in keeping with
the spirit of the Yellow Submarine,
I'm going to write
everything here in broken prose,
that's how I feel about my writing anyway.

My story...
I've been writing for almost fifteen years
with modest success:
I have 30 mostly educational
picture books and easy readers
and around 1000 articles.

Here's the deal -- I really truly am a novelist.
I've had about 50 rejections a year,
since I began submitting
Here's the list of 7 novels:
Fractals, followed by Tornado Allie,
then Jimmer, Eating Snot, Crying for the Moon,
then Plumb Crazy and now Profit.
and they have received  around 750 no's.

I am afraid.
Of what?
That no one is ever going to read my books.

The  no's haven't all been bad.
Agents and editors have read many of my works
and they are liked universally,
but not loved, and you need someone to love your work,
everyone says so,
all you need is love.
Love is all you need.

My biggest dilemma --
I hunger
for readers to find my stories
to love them.
The need gnaws at my insides.
I don't know which way to go.
I mean,
I'm the insecure writer
and it's complicated.

Enough of my drama already,
I will save some for next month.

Telling someone does help.
Thank you for your time.
In the words of the great poet
Sir Paul McCartney,
"We all live in a yellow submarine."

50 comments:

  1. There are other options besides a traditional publisher. With your experience, that might be a path worth looking into.

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  2. No doubt you could self-publish and find readers. Having a backlog of stories is the best thing you can do for yourself if you're self-publishing. And if traditional publishing is what you really crave, then I wonder if you have workshopped these novels? Or had critique partners help you identify what might be keeping an agent or editor from saying yes? So heartbreaking to get no over and over again. I've been at this about twelve years, so I feel ya on that.

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  3. Hello! Welcome to IWSG!! We are so happy to have you. =)

    I am not even close to getting anything published yet. I have a CP who is reading my first draft as I write it. I'm am truly blessed to have him - he rocks! Once I'm ready to publish, I'll be doing it on my own. That's after I have one more person take a look at it. I give you big kudos. You have accomplished so very much!!

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  4. HI!
    Welcome to the IWSG! It's a great place to share.

    I don't want you to give up. There are a lot of small publishers out there looking for great work. Self-publishing is fantastic choice if you have the drive.

    You will make something work.

    Keep going. Keep at it. Keep writing.

    Heather M. Gardner

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  5. I think you have an amazing attitude and the fact that you had not given up after the first rejection letter says a lot about you as a person. You rock! I am currently sharing your fear too, that no one will ever read my books, but I still believe that someday someone will. Keep fighting and keep writing.

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  6. Hi L. Diane, Yes, the self publishing door. I will chat about that in my next insecure writer post. I feel really lost out here.

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    1. Ack, here's a cyber rope. Grab it! Hold onto it!

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  7. L.G. I am in a critique group and have been to a few workshops. There has been some discussion why I am facing this problem. I will do a post about that down the road. Fibbety Jibbet.

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  8. Elsie, Kudos to you! It's sound like you are on the right path. :)

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  9. Hi, Heather, Yes, I have just started looking at smaller publishers this year. I am ever hopeful I will find my way.

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  10. Muree, I am really thick skinned when it comes to rejection anymore. Thank you for the encouragement. I appreciate it. It's nice to know others are in the same boat.

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  11. Don't know about your stories but I LOVE you titles. I mean 'Tornado Allie', seriously that is genius.

    Hang in there the love it out there, somewhere.

    Nice to meet you.

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  12. Is there room in your sub? I'm very quiet and I'm small, so I don't take up much space. We could dive and sip tea or coffee (either will do), then talk about this business called writing.

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  13. Wow. Good for you to keep sending out your work. The list of rejections shows how hard you're trying. Eventually, you'll get a hit. Do your research, keep your options open. I hope you find your audience!

    Thanks for visiting my blog!

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  14. I'm impressed with what you've accomplished with your writing so far and hope you keep churning out those fabulously named books. You do have lots of options, and keeping an eye on agent and publisher Twitter feeds also let's you know what specific individuals in the biz are looking for. Good luck! I'm rooting for you!

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  15. I used to keep track of my rejections but I started tossing them out. Too much paperwork. I expect I continue to get them even after having numerous books published. What else can a submarine driver do?

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  16. Thanks, Faraway, thanks for the title love. Nice to meet you too!

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  17. Clee, Hang out anytime. :) Fan of vanilla almond tea.

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  18. Hi, Mary! I will keep trying.

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  19. I have been watching the Twitter feeds some, but one of me...I think I miss stuff. Thanks for the encouragement.

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  20. Welcome to the group. :) Yeah, the love thing is tricky and often unpredictable. Even after a book gets published, you need enough readers to LOVE it, not just enjoy it, in order for the word of mouth to spread. But doesn't knowing that we're all in this crazy mess together make it feel better. And hey, just think of how many writers would love your creds - you're already doing awesome!

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  21. Thank you for the welcome. I am wholly grateful for my success up to now.

    I appreciate the company here. It's overwhelming and good. Thank you for your wisdom and encouraging words, too.

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  22. Hi, popping in from the ISWG! Love the way you have written this post :)
    Suzanne @ Suzannes Tribe

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  23. I think as long as you're persistent, and you enjoy the process, it'll be worthwhile.

    While the rejections must get really annoying, I'd imagine your prose is improving over time, and you'll be able to sharpen and re-use the best ideas you've had in previous novels.

    Have you written much shorter fiction? I'd imagine short stories for magazines would be a good way to boost your reputation, and make some connections with publishers and agents.

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    1. I hope so! I do find repurposing things can be handy. I will think about your suggestion to write short stories. :)

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  24. Look. At. You. Can I just tell you right here, right now, how much I adore you? I do. Really. I'm so proud you joined. I love your "backyard". ;)

    IT will happen, sister! You have to have faith in yourself and your writing. I know you have it, but every once in while we need a reminder about keeping the faith.

    Thanks for the nudge today. Apparently, I needed one. A big one. My IWSG post is up, and I have you to thank. :)

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    1. You are awesome! This was hard. I'm inherently shy... Oh, this has been really fun experience!

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  25. You have so many successes. You will have one of your novels published. I have six novels written, one I've actually queried a small amount. I got two requests but was ultimately given the big no. So I've just kept writing and writing. I am too nervous to query or anything. Why? Who knows. But hopefully one-day I'll try again. In the mean time I will cheer on others and look forward to celebrating with you when y oh announce your debut!

    Meredith

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    1. Writing is a good plan. A very good plan!

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  26. Self publishing can.get you the exposure you need. Doing something is better than doing nothing at all. Good luck.to you!

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  27. Maybe you should consider self-publishing one of your works and see how it's received.

    In any case, welcome to the group. :)
    IWSG #118 until Alex culls the list again.

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    1. I am thinking about self-publishing. I will chat about that next month...

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  28. You should self-publish your own novels. I know so many who have been successful with that venture, including one author friend who has sold 300,000 copies of her books.
    Welcome to the IWSG! Really glad Candi told you about it.

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    1. Hi Alex. Yes, there are some great success stories out there. I'm really insecure about self-publishing.

      I'm glad Candi sent me this way, too!

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  29. Like Alex says: self-publish. Go to my web site, and you will see that I have taken my own advice. Self-publish and the right person may well see your work. Believe in your dream. Now, not every self-published author is like Rashelle, selling 300,000 copies. But you never know until you try! :-)

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    1. Thanks, Roland. I am thinking about this. I will check out your site.

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  30. Welcome to IWSG Molly. Self-publish, self-publish, self-publish! You have nothing to lose. Agents are finding the next big novels through amazon self-published charts now (if you still want to go that way after you self-pub). And, I would suggest to read JA Konrath's blog from first to last post. Again, welcome!

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    1. Hi, Marcia, Thanks for your thoughts!

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  31. Nothing wrong with hungering for readers to love your work. When we're hungry we usually pay attention to the feeling. We find food. You'll find the *food* to feed this hunger too. Just don't give up!

    Sia McKye OVER COFFEE

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  32. I feel your addiction pains, the desire, the innate need. It sort of pulses in your mind, heart and soul.

    Yeah, we're all in a yellow submarine.

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    1. It does, it so does.

      And our friends are all on board the sub!

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  33. Nice to meet you Molly! I really admire you for working so hard, and I know that you've come to the right place for help. I agree with everyone that it's important not to give up. I also think that you should look into self-publishing.

    Julie

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  34. Thanks, Julie. Nice to meet you too. I really appreciate all the encouragement. I will dive into my serious insecurity about self publishing next month.

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  35. Molly, Had to come back and read all your comments. Wise words. I'm not big on I-told-you-so's... but I told you this was an amazing group of people! If I were you, I'd go back and reread each individual comment. Listen to the sage advice from them. They speak from their hearts and offer you their truths. Many above are successful, self-published authors. I know because I've read a few of their books. Not only are they successful, but they're as equally supportive. You can do this. I know you can. Hugs. :D

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    1. I will think about these things. I will think long and hard. I know my books will grab some readers. I so appreciate the time that folks have spent here. I really do.

      Thanks for your support.

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  36. All those "nos" are really hard, but someday you are going to look back and be glad you made it through them. Your books will be read.

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  37. Thanks, Tyrean. I appreciate you support of what I'm trying to do. Your words really do send a burst of hope my way.

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